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Posted on Dec 18, 2017 at 08:34 AM

Is it just me, or is there an air of sadness in this space? 

 

Why so?

 

I visit this blog from time to time, and quite consistently leave with a felt need to eat a bowl of butter pecan icecream with a splash of whiskey, masturbate and cry myself to sleep. 

 

Should I be concerned that misery is what I have to look forward to when I grow up? Say it ain't so!

 

Must it be so that to live is to suffer?  

 

Really...I'm concerned. Should I  get a puppy and a monthly subscription (prescription?) to a wine club?

 

Surely there are silver linings, yes? 


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Posted on Feb 10, 2018 at 10:08 PM

Quoting silverlion:

~~  born1top  ~~

 

Oh my Gosh !, ... Did You Inhale, by any chance ?.

 

Just Checking on ya...

 

~~  S L  ~~  &  Partner  ~~  I C  ~~

 



No puff puff, Read Matthew chapter 10 in its entirety, that is for the Father, then study Matthew chapter 10 and that one will be for the Son,  then read and study Matthew chapter 10  again but this time  digested it deep into your spirit,  and that will be for the Holy Spirit/ Ghost. 

 

Google Kim Walker on u tube, she has a video on Holy Spirit, check that out as she sings, it is a beautiful song, no puff puff for me.

 

 

Yours truly Mr Born1top. 

Love and peace, 🙏❤& ✌...

 


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Posted on Feb 08, 2018 at 06:27 AM

Quoting born1top:

I'll be riding, lol 😁, who did that? No not in the bushes, I have a hidden cam on ur tv, or waz it the phone, ah it might have been in that new design light bulb. Them tech think of every thing,  bad boy, bad boy, no mean no, stop she haz  a headache,  leave her alone, not tonight,  ahh, smart turn the light on! The light is on, it stay on that's how I got u here. No she say it waz the gold, my light, oh he say, lights out door shuts, she screams where are you going, silence, garage door,  car drives off in the middle of the night, she can't sleep, he returns, delicious treats favorite, she says may I have some, he says no I have a headache, off to her secret room, she returns, Victoria strikes again, headaches are gone, he shares, she shares, chemistry, happy ending!!! 💖😉😁  You know what I'm talking about 🤳.

 

Yep yours truly, Mr Born1top. 

Love and peace 


~~  born1top  ~~

 

Oh my Gosh !, ... Did You Inhale, by any chance ?.

 

Just Checking on ya...

 

~~  S L  ~~  &  Partner  ~~  I C  ~~

 


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Posted on Feb 06, 2018 at 08:51 PM

Quoting gentilily:

Well, friend...

 

I don't watch tv, but I'll have you know that, after this post, I traded my light bulbs for wax candles, and my cell phone for a pigeon. 



We are all going to candles and pigeons, right after the war on tv, what sky daddy, one world tricky satellite, with the pill that comes in then assemble it self after a water drink and push button nuclear transformation. 

 

 

With that, goodnight, morning, etc today, tomorrow and forever more. All my other gibberish waz just that fun...

 

 

Yours truly Mr Born1top. 

Love and peace. 


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Posted on Feb 06, 2018 at 08:38 PM

Quoting gentilily:

Am but a girl. 

 

Sanity is ours...until it's not. We're all sane...until we're not. One person's insanity is another's walk in the park. What's your threshold? 

 

Crazy is as crazy does. 



Mostly worship, have my time with the Father,  Word, and Comforter, that's why I'm single!

 Be careful, stay sweet,  I'll be out of here by Valentine's Day, it's time to celebrate Ash Wednesday to Easter/ Resurrection.

 

 

 

 

 

Yours truly Mr Born1top. 

Love and peace, don't hate participate,  in love. 


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Posted on Feb 06, 2018 at 05:24 PM

Quoting born1top:

I'll be riding, lol 😁, who did that? No not in the bushes, I have a hidden cam on ur tv, or waz it the phone, ah it might have been in that new design light bulb. Them tech think of every thing,  bad boy, bad boy, no mean no, stop she haz  a headache,  leave her alone, not tonight,  ahh, smart turn the light on! The light is on, it stay on that's how I got u here. No she say it waz the gold, my light, oh he say, lights out door shuts, she screams where are you going, silence, garage door,  car drives off in the middle of the night, she can't sleep, he returns, delicious treats favorite, she says may I have some, he says no I have a headache, off to her secret room, she returns, Victoria strikes again, headaches are gone, he shares, she shares, chemistry, happy ending!!! 💖😉😁  You know what I'm talking about 🤳.

 

Yep yours truly, Mr Born1top. 

Love and peace 



Well, friend...

 

I don't watch tv, but I'll have you know that, after this post, I traded my light bulbs for wax candles, and my cell phone for a pigeon. 


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Posted on Feb 06, 2018 at 05:22 PM

Quoting born1top:

Lol I know ur not insane, nor crazy you write too good to that. But sane people do insane stuff,  look at all the MM individuals here.

No way we are a prize package, we are on a web looking for love, companionship,  etc, yes I know half are looking for sex / intimacy, bag of gold giggle giggle omg ( help I fell off the couch, and I can't stop laughing, = that's a pause ). Ok I'm back my friend, had to go put up my bag of gold, what yes I have gold we all do that's why we are here the internet cost gold, shhhhh they will ask for more gold.  

Oh, what waz I ranting about, oh insane yes we all have a little that's why we are single? I have been criticize on a many occasion, but I'm still standing for now, there are some rude men here who every now and then criticize other men, and I find that kinda cheesy especially sinc we're supposed to be educated and intelligent.  Oh, and I've been turning down dates,  so you know for a man who has not been intimate in years and I mean years I must be a little insane or real smart 😁.  Yes I consider myself special,  and we all should and we all deserve to have our equally insane/ sane mate to accommodate us in that special way, because they are special as well. 🥂 Cheers  

 

So as u  can 👀 there is nothing wrong with being sane / insane, just whatch out for those who have high levels of insane,  Too must sane might be dangerous as well, / boring.  Ok I'm done..

 

Yours trulys, Mr Born1top.

Love and peace.



Am but a girl. 

 

Sanity is ours...until it's not. We're all sane...until we're not. One person's insanity is another's walk in the park. What's your threshold? 

 

Crazy is as crazy does. 


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Posted on Feb 03, 2018 at 09:35 PM

Quoting gentilily:

Born1 friend...

 

What in skydaddy's name are you talkin' 'bout? Are you outside in my bushes??

 

Sorry you lost such a bit of work. I generally type long posts in my notes or someplace then copy and paste. You can also use an email draft and delete it if you want once you're done. 



I'll be riding, lol 😁, who did that? No not in the bushes, I have a hidden cam on ur tv, or waz it the phone, ah it might have been in that new design light bulb. Them tech think of every thing,  bad boy, bad boy, no mean no, stop she haz  a headache,  leave her alone, not tonight,  ahh, smart turn the light on! The light is on, it stay on that's how I got u here. No she say it waz the gold, my light, oh he say, lights out door shuts, she screams where are you going, silence, garage door,  car drives off in the middle of the night, she can't sleep, he returns, delicious treats favorite, she says may I have some, he says no I have a headache, off to her secret room, she returns, Victoria strikes again, headaches are gone, he shares, she shares, chemistry, happy ending!!! 💖😉😁  You know what I'm talking about 🤳.

 

Yep yours truly, Mr Born1top. 

Love and peace 


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Posted on Feb 03, 2018 at 09:09 PM

Quoting gentilily:

Thank you for your kind words :). I'm not actually insane, Born1. Was just pretending. And just because I'm paranoid doesn't mean they're not out to get me. Tehe. 



Lol I know ur not insane, nor crazy you write too good to that. But sane people do insane stuff,  look at all the MM individuals here.

No way we are a prize package, we are on a web looking for love, companionship,  etc, yes I know half are looking for sex / intimacy, bag of gold giggle giggle omg ( help I fell off the couch, and I can't stop laughing, = that's a pause ). Ok I'm back my friend, had to go put up my bag of gold, what yes I have gold we all do that's why we are here the internet cost gold, shhhhh they will ask for more gold.  

Oh, what waz I ranting about, oh insane yes we all have a little that's why we are single? I have been criticize on a many occasion, but I'm still standing for now, there are some rude men here who every now and then criticize other men, and I find that kinda cheesy especially sinc we're supposed to be educated and intelligent.  Oh, and I've been turning down dates,  so you know for a man who has not been intimate in years and I mean years I must be a little insane or real smart 😁.  Yes I consider myself special,  and we all should and we all deserve to have our equally insane/ sane mate to accommodate us in that special way, because they are special as well. 🥂 Cheers  

 

So as u  can 👀 there is nothing wrong with being sane / insane, just whatch out for those who have high levels of insane,  Too must sane might be dangerous as well, / boring.  Ok I'm done..

 

Yours trulys, Mr Born1top.

Love and peace.


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Posted on Feb 03, 2018 at 12:30 AM

Quoting born1top:

Hi Miss G, don't over think life love, learn,  push forward, stay away from any situation that is not stable that would have you jeopardize your sanity. A sound mind is precious, you are very bright beautiful young lady accept nothing less. 

Will talk with you later, time for ice cream, my choice for tonight Neapolitan, no whiskey, just God. 

 

 

Yours truly Mr Born1top. 

God bless love and peace. 


Thank you for your kind words :). I'm not actually insane, Born1. Was just pretending. And just because I'm paranoid doesn't mean they're not out to get me. Tehe. 


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Posted on Feb 03, 2018 at 12:24 AM

Quoting born1top:

😉 chemistry does it lie, however it may not cover all the wonderful attributes of love, but chemistry combine with unconditional love would make it very extraordinary! I'll be riding a piece soon concerning being equally yoked, I wrote One the other day but somehow it did not make it to the big screen, I believe my time had expired, I did not click save, and it was such a large piece, I decided to wait for another day that would be appropriate for me to spend that time blogging.

 

So you be encouraged, and I'll see you soon, just remember we're only one blog away, possibly just digits.

By the way did you forget to send me that photograph, 😁.  

 

 

 

 

Yours truly Mr Born1top. 

Love and peace...



Born1 friend...

 

What in skydaddy's name are you talkin' 'bout? Are you outside in my bushes??

 

Sorry you lost such a bit of work. I generally type long posts in my notes or someplace then copy and paste. You can also use an email draft and delete it if you want once you're done. 


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Posted on Feb 01, 2018 at 09:36 PM

😉 chemistry does it lie, however it may not cover all the wonderful attributes of love, but chemistry combine with unconditional love would make it very extraordinary! I'll be riding a piece soon concerning being equally yoked, I wrote One the other day but somehow it did not make it to the big screen, I believe my time had expired, I did not click save, and it was such a large piece, I decided to wait for another day that would be appropriate for me to spend that time blogging.

 

So you be encouraged, and I'll see you soon, just remember we're only one blog away, possibly just digits.

By the way did you forget to send me that photograph, 😁.  

 

 

 

 

Yours truly Mr Born1top. 

Love and peace...


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Posted on Feb 01, 2018 at 08:53 PM

Quoting gentilily:

cont...apparently there's a word limit here, and I talk too much...
 
P.S.
 
Just when I think Im ready to wrap this up, another thought comes to mind...which might suggest--should the findings of said research hold true--that I am but an analytical ball of self-perpetuated sadness...a hopeless sadfuck. Just when I thought I'd grabbed happiness by the horns, and was ready to ride it to the mountain top, I have come to a wallow in the depths of a third-life crisis. Reverse cowgirl (May somebody's God save me).
 
I digress...
 
Empathy...the state of putting yourself in one's shoes to understand with intention one's experiences through experiences of your own from which you can relate. Scientists (analytical sadbags, according to their own research) suggest that mood operates by way of contagious permeation. Happiness....tag you're it! Sadness...tag you've caught it! Considering this, I further ponder to what extent i can afford in one instance or another to catch happiness or sadness. There are, apparently (inherently?) times when one or the other may serve to kill one's vibe...in whichever realm that vibe may exist. Feeling happy...screw you, I have serious shit to analyze here. Feeling sad...screw you, Ive lofty shit to get done here. I dont exactly find it necessary to hold to one side of the binary...most particularly in that one state only exists in light of the other. I do, however, think it is good to perhaps know and set a threshold relative to one's modus operandi, as I dont know with certainty what exemplifies the peak of happiness, but I can imagine that the valley of sadness has the potential to run deep and wide. 
 
Ultimately, I think that all can be well in the world, so long as there is ice cream... and whiskey...and gummy vitamins, of course. 


Hi Miss G, don't over think life love, learn,  push forward, stay away from any situation that is not stable that would have you jeopardize your sanity. A sound mind is precious, you are very bright beautiful young lady accept nothing less. 

Will talk with you later, time for ice cream, my choice for tonight Neapolitan, no whiskey, just God. 

 

 

Yours truly Mr Born1top. 

God bless love and peace. 


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Posted on Feb 01, 2018 at 03:30 PM

 

Hey there, everyone. Thanks so much for your replies! Sorry for the delay in replying...it appeared that you all were staging an intervention, so I had to make a clean get away. Ive eaten so much icecream since I last wrote.

 

@ Mr.Born1top...thanks for your comments, I picked up what you laid out :). Good point about turning a new leaf. And, yes, perhaps an MM party is in due order!

 

@Funtimes...laptop battery get too hot? Where'd you go, pal?

 

@Youmedupree...Rmac22 is right about whiskey and valium, pretty lady. Now, whiskey and gummy vitamins...whole different ballgame! 

 

@Silverlion...it makes sense that the blog atmosphere moves in cycles. Im gonna be a good girl, so the Church Ladies don't come after me. 

 

@MMCounselor...thanks for holding down the fort.

 

@Mevil...am but a hundredaire trying to trick a millionaire into marrying me (Dont fall for it).

 

@Pearlbeforedogs...yes, yes...life is suffering, say the Buddhists. The question is to what degree we possess the ability to choose our sufferings. Similarly, perhaps, to the suggestion, "Choose your battles." Moreover, to what degree do we possess the ability to define, rationalize and compartmentalize our sufferings? I dont know the answer to this, per se, but am curious as to how people conceptualize sadness and suffering relative to their internal and external experiences.

 

@Rmac22...very interesting study you referenced. Your comment sent me down a rabbit hole of websearch*...3 hours of my life that I'll never get back (Thanks, Rmac). G@@gle query "happy people are happy, sad people are sad" and G@@gle scholar query "sadness happiness" yielded some rather interesting articles regarding states of happiness and sadness and their affect on information processing. 

 

Essentially, people, when in a saddened state use more central/analytical processing where as people, when in happy states, use more peripheral/heuristic-focused processing, both of which have implications for how we respond to and communicate with the world. One article I came across theorized that happy people listen to the music (or melody), and sad people listen to the words (or lyrics). Another study focused on communication and response as correlated with congruence of mood. It found that dissonance (the imbalance of personal expectations in light of presented behaviors) occurs when people in different states attempt to communicate. People in a happy state communicate with greater synergy with other people who are in a happy state. Likewise, people who are in a saddened state communicate with greater synergy with other people who are in a saddened state. I should distinguish happy or sad people (inherent or persistent states of being, perhaps) from happy or saddened states (transient, fluid experiences) as I perceive them. 

 

What does this mean for me and this post? Well, it prompted me to reflect on my state/mood during times when I checked in to read the blog. If I may preface, Id say that--relative to the theory you shared that people tend to operate from a baseline threshold of happiness or sadness--If I had to identify one way or the other, Id say I have baseline tendencies toward happiness, and that I experience sadness in more situational or episodic contexts. Of course, I (anyone?) could find infinite and, perhaps, permanent sadness in the state of the world, the human experience, an unresolved or fractured relationship etc, but Im speaking from more of an operational perspective. Considering this, I pondered on how my mood upon entering the blog space affected my reception to some of the posts. Was I experiencing dissonance relative to my emotional state due to some dis-congruence in expectation vs presented behaviors?

 

The rabbit hole went deeper (thanks, for nothing, Rmac). Another study suggests a phenomenon of false compensation whereby people superficially present as happy to satisfy social expectations and pressures that everyone be happy at all times. This pursuit of happiness (or the illusion thereof) further complicates and exacerbates the already existing states of sadness by way of further isolation. My takeaway...I was perhaps a bit insensitive to prance my happy ass in here telling others where the sun shines (kudos to Rmac, of course). In that, I'd like to offer my sincere and humble apologies to anyone I may have offended or caused to feel further isolated in their state of sadness. 

 

I came across a lot of research that explored many of the multifaceted and nuanced ideologies and manifestations of happiness and sadness, and I--for the first time ever, I think--pondered the question, "Am I happy?" And then, "Am I sad?" And if I am happy or sad, am I superficially or deeply happy or sad? Am I authentically or deceptively happy or sad? Am I naturally or artificially happy or sad? Acutely or chronically happy or sad? 

 

I like to think that I am happy...or at least that I could be happy (that sadness I may experience is a temporary state), but in light of my newly acquired considerations (Hail, King Rmac!), I settled on "I don't know." And then I asked myself--with a bit of frustration--"Who the fuck has time to figure this shit out?" Why not--rather than get wrapped up in the infinite and meandering thoughts of the mind--simply rub one out, and move on with it. After all...idle hands, say the Christians, are they devil's workshop.

 

 *I dont know if it's possible to post links here, but I can provide references to the above mentioned studies upon request. 

 


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Posted on Feb 01, 2018 at 03:28 PM

cont...apparently there's a word limit here, and I talk too much...
 
P.S.
 
Just when I think Im ready to wrap this up, another thought comes to mind...which might suggest--should the findings of said research hold true--that I am but an analytical ball of self-perpetuated sadness...a hopeless sadfuck. Just when I thought I'd grabbed happiness by the horns, and was ready to ride it to the mountain top, I have come to a wallow in the depths of a third-life crisis. Reverse cowgirl (May somebody's God save me).
 
I digress...
 
Empathy...the state of putting yourself in one's shoes to understand with intention one's experiences through experiences of your own from which you can relate. Scientists (analytical sadbags, according to their own research) suggest that mood operates by way of contagious permeation. Happiness....tag you're it! Sadness...tag you've caught it! Considering this, I further ponder to what extent i can afford in one instance or another to catch happiness or sadness. There are, apparently (inherently?) times when one or the other may serve to kill one's vibe...in whichever realm that vibe may exist. Feeling happy...screw you, I have serious shit to analyze here. Feeling sad...screw you, Ive lofty shit to get done here. I dont exactly find it necessary to hold to one side of the binary...most particularly in that one state only exists in light of the other. I do, however, think it is good to perhaps know and set a threshold relative to one's modus operandi, as I dont know with certainty what exemplifies the peak of happiness, but I can imagine that the valley of sadness has the potential to run deep and wide. 
 
Ultimately, I think that all can be well in the world, so long as there is ice cream... and whiskey...and gummy vitamins, of course. 

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Posted on Jan 26, 2018 at 01:13 AM

Try to be more positive, I know it’s easier said than done but you don’t know how shitty my life were and I can honestly say count yourself fortunate since you’re rich and I’ve been poor all my life. If I told you about my life, you’d cry so I won’t. You can go travel around the world, you can do so much more.

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Posted on Jan 25, 2018 at 08:29 AM

Quoting MMCounselor:

OMG  you crack me up.  I DO remember the fun blogs that were posted here a few years ago.  Quite a few verbal and (pretend) fist fights as I remember but still fun and interesting.  It is good to see as few of the "oldies but goodies" still hanging in there.  Hope you all had a wonderful new year.........hugs, peace and love all around!!!!!



~~  MMCounselor  ~~

 

Glad I can be of, some use around here.  Yes, The Boards were quite The Place, with the great camaraderie.

 

In fact, I recall one of Your first comments towards me saying, ... ' Be Positive '.

 

So I've taken your advice, all these years, but there is only one ' Bepositive ', and you know who that is.

 

~~  S L  ~~

 

 


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Posted on Jan 17, 2018 at 04:50 PM

OMG  you crack me up.  I DO remember the fun blogs that were posted here a few years ago.  Quite a few verbal and (pretend) fist fights as I remember but still fun and interesting.  It is good to see as few of the "oldies but goodies" still hanging in there.  Hope you all had a wonderful new year.........hugs, peace and love all around!!!!!


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Posted on Jan 16, 2018 at 05:10 PM

Various studies have shown that there are happy people and unhappy people.  Happy people just tend to be happy.  Unhappy people well they just tend to be unhappy.  Sometimes things happen so that happy people are for a time unhappy, but they recover and go back to being happy.  Similarly, sometimes events happen that cause unhappy people to be happy, but they recover and go back to being unhappy.   

 

Choose to be happy.  It comes from inside.  


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Posted on Jan 11, 2018 at 10:18 AM


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