They say if you put it down on paper its good therpy...so here goes..
Yesterday a customer at my work comes in the store..screaming call 911...please call 911..as we did so..i ran outside to see what happened..I saw in the parking lot a man laying on the ground..a lot of people were around him..I thought he was having a siezure..when i got closer..I noticed that he was one of our employees..whom I might add I had just spoken to while giving him his paycheck.
He was a very quiet..but friendly and always polite guy..seemed well liked by everyone...
as i stood overr him someone is crying near m,e saying she heard a gun..he started to have blood spewing out from his mouth..and his chest...the Rescue got there..tried to Pump his chest..he looked dead to me..his eyes were cold..but opened..
What a shock to see ...I have never seen a person in that state before..we were all shocked..they took him to the hospital..
the police came surrounded the parking lot..taped the whole ting off..it looked like we had a hostage situation..it was aweful..
I started talking to people in the store who knew him..
get this..one tells me..he told her Sunday he was going to shoot himself ..or maybe everyone in the Store..and take us all with him..in fact i found out that he told 2 people this...
HELLO......... what a wake-up call..I said..why didnt you tell someone else? they thought he was kidding...
All I can say is this....
If someone says they are going to take their life or others with them...they usually mean it..
I thank God he decided not to go through with his plan..and spared us all..To think that going to work yesterday..could have been the last day I would have ever hugged my kids or spoken to them is a horrible thought..
I will forever look at my life differently..
You never know what another person has bearing down on them..when they are hurting ..give them your time..life is Precious..you never know what today will bring..yesterday could have been my last..
I will forever be changed from this!!!
By the way..we got a call 4 hours later......he died.......
NYCHICK write: farrah look alike thank god u are ok.. i do feel bad for the man who really thought his problems could not be fixed and saw one way out.. however. i am a firm believer in things happen for a reason. We simply have today that statement is true, u wake up take the day for granted and suddenly find it could be your last day.. so i say thank god butter u are ok .. and please dont run outside when theres chaos u never will know if u are gonna be in the line of fire.. sometimes we forget who is in charge.. for some its God for others its themselves.. i choose the later..
where on earth would we find another blonde dippy girl to replace you??
Lol..thank Ny,,,your right,,dont know what I was thinking when I ran out there..
I spoke to one of the Firemen who came to rescue that day..he said that there were 2 letters found,,so he definately had this planned..
blonde dippy girl??? awww thank you...i think...but you should know ,.,its our secret weapon...heehee..never really let them know what ya got! wink..wink.
Petty..what a sweet post..you really have a true heart of gold!
Cats, K3T, Bob, Woody, Toonces,,and I hope Im not leaving anyone out...I really appreciate all your kind words of support.Maybe we will all look at our life differently .,,,especially when we look at the Victims from Katrina Disaster.
Thank you everyone for your very kind words..
But I'm the lucky one here..although it could have been very bad for all of us, it wasnt..
I agree with you all..what can be so bad to selfishly take your own life..or to think about taking innocent others down with you, and leaving friends and family with all that pain.However....
With all the news coming from the Gulf Coast..i have nothing to complain about..I only feel guilt,,that I had a nice airconditioned home,,and a nice warm bath..and plenty of food in my frige. i cant imagine what those poor people are having to endure..and it will only get much worse before it gets better..When I think of the children,,and elderly people,,my heart was sick,,and feels so much pain for all those people..This is Americas "Sunami"...
I really hope that each one of us will reach into our pockets and give to this cause,,the Red Cross,,and the other organizations who are going to need our help to get the supplys to these people..
I remember when the 911 tradegy occured..and the outpoor of help and concern for the people and familys of the World trade center deaths,,i thought that was the worst thing I ever had seen in my life..
Now Im not sure..it seems that things are just getting worse.
You know our Government cannot possibly help these victims on their own..it will take the effort of all of us.
I am making my own personal contribution,,and I know that everyone can afford something..Just knowing that I am alive and have nice clean dry sheets to sleep in is enough for me..think of the babys,,and children..my god my heart really aches for them.They have lost everything..
I truely wish that each and every one of you will think about the people when you sit down to a nice meal tonight,,and get into your warm beds...i know i will,,,and I have made my pledge to help them.
We are very lucky....it could have been us!
That is a terrible thing to happen, how traumatic for you and your staff. several years ago, i found one of my staff dead in her home(massive heart attack). she didn't call in sick and didn't show up, and as her supervisor, i went to check on her, she was elderly and not in great health. it is a terrible thing to find someone you know in that way. You go into shock, literally. I totally empathize with you. Keep an eye on your other staff too for signs of trauma. If you want to talk, you have my number. You and your staff and that man's family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Butter..I am so glad you are ok...that is such an awful thing to experience...It is awful for a person to be tormented inside with so much anger to want to do something like that ...again I am glad you are ok...
That is sad to think that people did not warn others, as they thought he was "kidding". These days people should be taken more seriously and precautions carried out. I cannot imagine the feeling of remembering giving the man his paycheck just a short time before, and then seeing and hearing what he had done, and realizing that when you handed him a check, you could have been a victim. I, too, am glad you are ok. I can't imagine what you must feel today.
Butter..That's wild. You think someone would of said something about it. People in that state of mind don't think rationally and he could of just as easy took others with him. Good thing his paycheck wasn't short...
farrah look alike thank god u are ok.. i do feel bad for the man who really thought his problems could not be fixed and saw one way out.. however. i am a firm believer in things happen for a reason. We simply have today that statement is true, u wake up take the day for granted and suddenly find it could be your last day.. so i say thank god butter u are ok .. and please dont run outside when theres chaos u never will know if u are gonna be in the line of fire.. sometimes we forget who is in charge.. for some its God for others its themselves.. i choose the later..
where on earth would we find another blonde dippy girl to replace you??
That is an absolutely emotionally moving story Butter. We all have pain. I wonder what caused his to go off to that extreme? I think the only event in my life that could make me feel like taking my own life would be if my children died. Even then I couldn't do it as I know in the Bible taking your life will send you to hell (and I am already in time outs with God)...In the end he had some rational thoughts as he took his own life and not others.
I can imagine your emotions yesterday and the horror you had to experience. I am sorry for that. Your faith in God is strong I know Butter and He was looking out for you. There are times God makes us question our own existence which I believe makes our lives stronger.
It is incredible that our society is so filled with these murder/suicide shootings. We talked about that yesterday at our staff meeting. How we need to be prepared if an angry parent enters the school building irrate with a gun. We actually have a procedure we practice with our students in the event of an emergency like that. Parents most prized possession,their children, can make them go crazy sometimes in cases of custody battles and so on.
Butter, I am happy you are okay as well as the people you work with. You are so right. We should take these people seriously as they are crying for help. Maybe he said it in a joking manner and no one wanted to act upon it. That man needed somebody and a support person could have saved his life. That is a could have and what is done is done. We can only learn from these horrific experiences. Thank you for sharing that. Thank God you are okay and only experienced a "wake-up" call. I guess it tells me the little things that go bad in our life really don't compare to really big things going on in our world. The saying "live everyday like it was your last" is a motto we should all live by. Thanks Butter!