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Posted on Tue, Mar 05, 2013 15:06

The sound of  knocking on my bedroom window at an impossible hour in the dark morning had me throwing back the covers and stumbling to the opposite side of the room toward the curtained window.  Although I'm far from alert, it didn't take me but a second to put on the cloak of agitation...thinking of something nasty to say to my Manda-B for locking herself out of the house while letting her beloved Lucy for a pre-dawn a pre-dawn constitutional. This had happened before.  As I pulled back curtains, the surprise of not seeing Manda, but my friends Rick and his wife Christine looking at me immediately sent a weight of dread and disbelief through my entire being.  I half ran and staggered to my front door, unbolted the locks and somehow actually remember the words Rick spoke to me while were standing the entry of the front door that seldom, if ever was used. "On the way to the hospital.........accident..........flipped over..........Bob..........in the back.........thrown .......... Bob...........was................killed."  I heard every dot, dot, dot in between, every pause in Rick's voice, saw the tears in Christine's eyes.    I think of that every time I spend more than a minute in that part of the house.

 

The night before, many phone calls, facebook status updates went out asking for prayer for Bob as he had been struck with what appeared to be a kidney stone while on his third mission trip to Zambia, the loving efforts to help him there at the village by the team were in vain and the pain was so severe, unable to relieve himself, advanced to a critical point and he, Tim and Melissa embarked on a 7 hour ride to the hospital in Lusaka.....I remember posting a status update asking for prayers, verbally giving Bob to God for there was nothing I could do thousands of miles away....little did I know that I was literally giving my husband to God that night..

 

"Whuh?,      What?      WHAT?!      WHAT!!!"  I kept repeating that over and over as I backed up into the living room....I remember being held, what?.....How?........a blur of things came out of my mouth, were running through my mind....I felt like that silver ball inside of a pinball machine....things, me, thoughts were bouncing around so fast...."How am I going to tell my sweet kids?    How am I going to tell his mom?"  "Really?......Really?  Is this really happening?....of course this is happening..........I remember sitting down......no clue how long I sat there........I think I called his mom first.....the words came out somehow and all I remember his mother saying......"oh Bobby......my Bobby........oh Sass........my Bobby".....it almost sounded like mewing from a kitten....  



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Posted on Mon, Mar 18, 2013 13:26

You're welcomed, hope good things happen for you in your future :)



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Posted on Sat, Mar 09, 2013 04:55

RMac, I'm finally figuring that out.  



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Posted on Sat, Mar 09, 2013 04:53

Thank you so much for your kind thoughts Hope and Jen!

 



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Posted on Fri, Mar 08, 2013 19:10

Two and a half years is not very long.  Take as much time as you need.   Be gentle with yourself.   . 

 

RMac



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Posted on Fri, Mar 08, 2013 07:01

Hi SASS--

I thought this was only a portion of a fictional book you were writing.

So very sorry for your loss.. 

I feel very fortunate for those of us who are able to place our thoughts, as well as pain, on paper and "process" them... "Processing" is VITAL to HEALING... 

I can certainly see why you wish to help others... 

Have a great weekend~~



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Posted on Thu, Mar 07, 2013 19:56

I have to say at first I wasn't sure if this was fiction or what.  Some people tend to type fictional soap opera type posts, etc., sorry for my confusion, you may want to add something to the beginning like "this happened to me" or something similar,.. no offense!  I looked on your profile to see if you were widowed, by the way, this was before anyone had replied to your post.  Then I read that you are a widow and came back and  saw some added posts here.

 

 

 

Most important, I want to tell you I am so sorry this happened to your husband and of course, to you and your family :(  How horribly tragic! 

 

 



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Posted on Thu, Mar 07, 2013 19:29

Thanks RMac It was 2.5 and half years ago.   I hope some day I can finish this..  



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Posted on Thu, Mar 07, 2013 08:17

I am so sorry. How long ago did this happen? 

 

RMac

 



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