Of the following-I’ve not only wondered of in the moment, but as well what future there
may be-in even pursuing to finding it worthwhile, to fixate on people who’s work wont’ befit
the have of us, serious relationship-between they and I. I truly don’t want to waste our time bcs, extrinsically
I can bring more into the ‘ship-even in just growing to remain friends, which is sincerely possible, for I feel already-that he’s not sensing me irresistible. so of the situation-I’m vacillating, and feeling frustrated.
I’ve recently grown fixated with a gentleman who is a doctor. it’s early in the interact, with us volleying messages back n forth thus far. he’s doctor at a not only a hospital, but a teaching hospital at that. so the rotations and probably estimating student loads to teach-leave him next to no room to not only not truly date, but probably not to have much time to stretch out and play a possible pick-up game, of say basketball with colleagues, and just down right-be a boy, in between situations, missing out on these pausings-due to amongst so much adultify of work necessating him to be uber competent.
I happen to sleuth of him on Facebook-and found that there’s no variance of lifestyle, the dominance of friends that are on his f.b. page are women, of the same nationality as he (for he’s Arab) and he didn’t before know until very recently-that I’m not fellow countryman. (btw: I’m African American). I can relate to him-for the scientific/intellect of what we each
know about medicine, so his income is farthest from my qualifying him attractive to me, even if he is nominally-a millionaire.
now, I know one answer to his potentially being relationshipped is that he could be traditional, and estimatingly export a woman from his country of origin, to take her up as bride, but doesn’t bcs he may not be traditional, and remains single-bcs the work that he does fronts as though he can remain 1) single only-and/or 2) won’t take up ‘ship into serious enough to marry bcs work won’t befit.
..and then there’s that I’m not irresistible to him-by I sense, sight-which of course between the truly mature , isn’t all that
So if I stay now, i would be taking a risk to: 1) be a friend-n remaining so, and don’t just want to remain so of anyone for the best of our matching synergy of our Spirits amiably, so if there literally isn’t Divine co-create purposeful to move us proceed into more intrinsic connectivity-maybe to marry, I am better to just move on.
clarity in truth is the most important, overriding my fixation that could mount into feelings.
anyone care to relate? if not comment?
thanks for “letting” me shareJ