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Posted on Mon, Jul 08, 2013 04:34

Trouble with a very simple way of Life. Too SIMPLE. ( just to let go) Anything...Anyone...Thoughts that are obsessive, Change, fearFEAR...

Peaceful and joyous IS THE WAY:  How do I get THIS...  ?

Working On IT!!  Second by Second. Looking at myself for Real for the 1st Time.. Character Defects...AND ALL.  Never knew  that this would Be SO ... Bloody Hard.  Friends please tell me your Secret... Achieving TRUE Happiness TODAY.    Really need to Know...

 



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Posted on Sun, Jul 14, 2013 09:38

Boy, you're not kidding.  Tie your well being to your circumstances and your going to be in trouble.  You have to CHOOSE joy, you have to CHOOSE to be grateful.

 

I had just won a Mercedes from my work as a result of my production and my daughter and I was struck by a Semi Truck.  I had a choice, I could have declared the unfairness of minding my own business and being struck by a Truck Driver that never cleared his right front end before he drifted into my lane.  Instead, I was so gratful, my daughter and I were not harmed and the car saved my life.

It's not corny, its all a consession of choices and your life is the sum of all of them.

 



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Posted on Wed, Jul 10, 2013 06:04

Quoting emmanuelst:

Thus the tale begins...changing the mind...daily.  Conditioned in this life I too felt and believed that I could and should count on others... Wow, what a wake up call.

My expectations were always met with great disappointment.  I know,  that what you put in the glass,  is what you end up with... and as my Dad always said,  You make your bed.  Now, lie in it,  of course, thats the part I did not like.

Consequences.  are Hard. Bloody Hard. It's growing up that is Making this even more difficult.  Blogging about becoming ...



We never truly ever grow up, we just grow wiser.



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Posted on Wed, Jul 10, 2013 04:22

Thus the tale begins...changing the mind...daily.  Conditioned in this life I too felt and believed that I could and should count on others... Wow, what a wake up call.

My expectations were always met with great disappointment.  I know,  that what you put in the glass,  is what you end up with... and as my Dad always said,  You make your bed.  Now, lie in it,  of course, thats the part I did not like.

Consequences.  are Hard. Bloody Hard. It's growing up that is Making this even more difficult.  Blogging about becoming ...



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Posted on Tue, Jul 09, 2013 22:19

All~

About 90% of Americans who take antidepressant medications, experience at least one of the numerous adverse side effects that can range from convulsions to suicidal thoughts to abnormal bleeding to sexual dysfunction.  According to an article I recently read, compelling new findings indicate that saffron is equally as effective as certain medications in treating mild to moderate depression...but without the unwanted side effects.  Additionally, it can also treat other mood disorders including anxiety and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD).

 

It might be worth the time to read up on saffron.



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Posted on Tue, Jul 09, 2013 18:11

Quoting NGL2011:

Hope,,,Every thing here is all Aces,, thanks for asking.  :)



WHERE THE HECK YOU BEEN DEAR!! WE'VE MISSED YOU!!!

Remember your blog on REALITY shows?

(Well, actually, I think you were hung up that day on Honey-Boo Boo!! THAT'S NO REALITY I'D EVER KNOW!! LOL)

I caught a show I LOVE now.. I think it's a new show??

 

AMERICA'S GOT TALENT!!

RAY---- I've decided I want to see an opera!!! I started to CRY when I heard one guy sing.... LOL... 

Some people have such tremendous talent... and then to hear their stories!!! 

I dry a lone tear and then when I think I'm okay... another act comes on where I get misty eyed again... 

I can't explain the feeling I get inside when I witness such passion people have!! 

It's as cool as UNDERCOVER BOSS!!

I guess not all reality shows give us nightmares!! ;)

GREAT TO SEE YOU BACK!! 



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Posted on Tue, Jul 09, 2013 13:05

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Hey NGL!! It has been good to see you around a bit dear!! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!!!

You really do not come out and play often enough!!  :(

How's the job? Family? How you doin!! ;)

*************

 

I did not take this post as "sad." I took it as a "self-reflection."..... 

 

What is "sad" is most people are not self-aware enough to recognise their "weanesses" or "flaws" and they "hide" behind something... What I gathered from this is our blog friend EMMANELIST is searching.. It's a very "Spiritual" awakening... regardless of ones religious beliefs... 

 

HAPPINESS IS A STATE OF MIND... 

 

 

Our buddy here has obviously been through a lot of trials and feels a loss of sense of "self," and power... 

 

POWER is an awful thing to lose!! 

 

We ARE what we "feed our minds" for sure.. 

I try to feed my mind with POSITIVE things all the time!! 

EMMAN,

BE+ and NGL have strong points here... If you fill your mind with NEGATIVE thoughts, you don't win.. 

Sometimes we just have to "Fake it to Make it!"

 

But I am not so worried about you, as I sense "growth" w/ each post!

 

It IS bloody hard--- BUT YOU CAN AND WILL.. DO IT!!  :) 

 

You say here, 

1) You have CHANGES.. (They often bring FEAR, but CHANGE is good when "status quo" is bad))

2) You are WORKING ON IT!

3) You are FINALLY looking at your REAL self! <----- More ppl need to do this! 

4) AND, You've asked for HELP!

Those are ALL POSITIVE STEPS!!

 

I'm PROUD of your growth! ;) 

 

BE+ I just checked out the site! I MUST READ THIS BOOK! 2 of my friends liked it! That will be my next book to read! Cool Cover, too!! :) 

 

I was given long ago, "Don't sweat the small stuff" I don't recall it-- It was very long ago, but I am ALL FOR those "self-help" books!! 

 



Hope,,,Every thing here is all Aces,, thanks for asking.  :)



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Posted on Mon, Jul 08, 2013 18:06

Hey NGL!! It has been good to see you around a bit dear!! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN!!!

You really do not come out and play often enough!!  :(

How's the job? Family? How you doin!! ;)

*************

 

I did not take this post as "sad." I took it as a "self-reflection."..... 

 

What is "sad" is most people are not self-aware enough to recognise their "weanesses" or "flaws" and they "hide" behind something... What I gathered from this is our blog friend EMMANELIST is searching.. It's a very "Spiritual" awakening... regardless of ones religious beliefs... 

 

HAPPINESS IS A STATE OF MIND... 

 

 

Our buddy here has obviously been through a lot of trials and feels a loss of sense of "self," and power... 

 

POWER is an awful thing to lose!! 

 

We ARE what we "feed our minds" for sure.. 

I try to feed my mind with POSITIVE things all the time!! 

EMMAN,

BE+ and NGL have strong points here... If you fill your mind with NEGATIVE thoughts, you don't win.. 

Sometimes we just have to "Fake it to Make it!"

 

But I am not so worried about you, as I sense "growth" w/ each post!

 

It IS bloody hard--- BUT YOU CAN AND WILL.. DO IT!!  :) 

 

You say here, 

1) You have CHANGES.. (They often bring FEAR, but CHANGE is good when "status quo" is bad))

2) You are WORKING ON IT!

3) You are FINALLY looking at your REAL self! <----- More ppl need to do this! 

4) AND, You've asked for HELP!

Those are ALL POSITIVE STEPS!!

 

I'm PROUD of your growth! ;) 

 

BE+ I just checked out the site! I MUST READ THIS BOOK! 2 of my friends liked it! That will be my next book to read! Cool Cover, too!! :) 

 

I was given long ago, "Don't sweat the small stuff" I don't recall it-- It was very long ago, but I am ALL FOR those "self-help" books!! 

 



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Posted on Mon, Jul 08, 2013 17:28

To know happiness, one must first know sadness.  This is the only way happiness can be appreciated.

 

Confucius say; never play hot hands with man with 3 hands. 



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Posted on Mon, Jul 08, 2013 11:34

Happiness is a choice !



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Posted on Mon, Jul 08, 2013 10:27

I am getting a little worried about you Emanuel......happiness comes from within.  I suggest you read the book THE SECRET....or go to The Secret on Facebook.  It is a good place to start because it is filled with positive energy and perhaps provide you with some answers.

Best of luck my friend and welcome to the Blogs.  :)



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Posted on Mon, Jul 08, 2013 08:56

Hey Sugar,

 

Awww-- You are taking the ever dreaded "Self-Awareness" course...

There ARE many bumps in the road here, and many times it becomes PAINFUL!!!

 

EMMAN--- You want a "secret" about someone they CAN'T STAND about themselves, but that is filled with self-aware RAW REALITY so much it BURNS through to the bone? 

I support you in your quest for happiness, so here goes baby doll.... 

(If I ever make a difference in just one person's life... I have achieved more than I am worthy of.) 

 

EMMAN- I'm not "really" a Princess... 

Hold on--- OF COURSE, EVERYONE KNOWS THIS...  ;)

 

So WHAT gigantic revelation evolves within this statement? 

 

Sweetie, I was forced to "Glare into that mirror and when I did, was unhappy with many of the results I had seen." 

 

WHAT did I see? 

 

I saw a very broken, beat down, shell of a woman who had made soooo many "Ill choices" they reflected DAILY in "her" life. My thought process and "emotional well being" were on high risk mode and everywhere I turned, I saw fragments of shattered pieces of my life engulfing me. It was akin to shrapnel used in military... (metal pieces projecting from an explosive, created by Henry Shrapnel, a British Army Officer)  The bomb had exploded and dissipated, but shrapnel was left in my bones. Shrapnel is akin to a "torture" mechanism.

 

I used "self-medicating" methods, which only amplified poor decision making... like DUH???? IDIOT I AM!! I buried my past out of "guilt," and one day the past came beating down my door. I ANSWERED, but again; instead of dealing with it in a positive way, I cowered and ran. There were demons I didn't feel strong enough to face...... 

 

Then when depression set in, (How I loathe that word!!) REALITY struck me with full force... 

I NEEDED "HELP" TO DRAG MYSELF OUT OF THE MIRE.... 

 

But here's the thing sweetie,

 

I STILL struggle with overrunning the demons, still battle my own afflictions and still fight war against myself at times.

 

The big "SECRET?" 

Well, THERE ISN'T ONE THAT I'VE FOUND! 

 

You continue looking into that mirror, put one foot in front of the other, and each day you awake, you are a survivor of your own self; and EVEN when the demons appeared to win the battle the day before; they didn't win the WAR.... YOU STAND MORE THAN YOU FALL ... and each day is a fresh start! 

 

EVERYONE battles character flaws; (Some just don't know it!) Maybe they over eat or gossip too much, or battle the bottle or drugs, or maybe they are severely judgmental or snap at others or choose to REACT versus RESPOND...  Maybe they are TAKERS of the world and deplete others versus building them up, or perhaps they are just downright angry individuals who roll around in negativity all day... 

SO MANY DEMONS MY DEAR.. 

 

MY REALITY? 

Due to my "upbringing" taking control and molding my personality at a very early age FOR SURVIVAL INSTINCTS, I was forced to spend much time being "alone" in the world. Therefore, my "poor character flaws" have/had more to do with "alone" characteristics, as battling self medicating, bulimia and over-eating, and smoking. Promiscuity has been the only one that really needed another person's involvement. (AH! I see some of you with light bulbs going off and saying, "WOW! I never looked at character flaws in that manner as "alone" or "socially" related.")

 

 

Yes, some people are just mean and/or judgmental...  (have to have someone to be mean or judgmental against) <--- NOT a "Loners" mentality...

Some people become LIARS <---- NOT a "Loners" mentality.. No one to lie to!

Some people gossip constantly <---- Have to send time with people for that.. <--- NOT a "Loner" mentality...

Some people drink, over eat or binge eat, suffer bulimia, smoke, rarely finish what they start, (from school to careers to relationships) THEY ARE QUITTERS who fail to comprehend FEAR NEVER WINS!!  <----- THOSE are "LONER FLAWS" at their finest and I have "managed" them quite well. 

 

What is MY battle TODAY? 

Well, it isn't drinking.. I'm on meds for weeks due to diverticulitis, and Flagyl and alcohol dont mix. I actually REQUESTED Flagyl over Cipro cuz I prefer "tanning" over booze. WHY? Oh, cuz I also battle "aging." Despite knowing I am a beautiful person "inside," there is always that waning that says, "No one will choose you if you are ugly. You might die alone." Even middle aged broads want to look good when their self-esteem has been punctured in life! ;) 

 

So now I am battling over-eating and "binge" eating-- difference here and I battle both! And then to "combat," I picked up smokes again to stop the craving. (Cravings are emotional and we use food for comfort, esp poorer women. Wealthy men get heavy due to sitting behind the desk all day and eating high calorie meals all the time while out to dinner. Poor women gain, B/C we can't afford the "high" all the time of shopping for stilettos and sexy dresses!) 

 

So NEVER feel alone my dear. Even the ones who "appear" to have it all together, aren't as "well connected" as they seem. AND, NEWSFLASH?

IF they think they do, they LIE TO THEMSELVES and need a dose of the "ever so harsh" REALITY check you are ensuing at the moment. 

 

OH! And possibly my WORST character flaw, and it is the worst as it has to do directly with "other people." 

I am very tolerant, but, when pushed past my limit, I will slice a person's throat and bury them alive to choke to death in the sand and gravel. I don't do this often, and no one here has ever witnessed this in me... (though some may not find it difficult to fathom! LOL) But there have been a few people in my life I held extremely close relationships with who have endured this. My mother, one BFF GF, and a "few good, or not so good, men." LOL.. 

 

Keep up the good work baby doll. You will make your way. And when you do, you will be amazed at how many steps ahead you are of so many who "appear" to have their act together, but fail in SELF- REALISM 101. I KNOW it's BLOODY HARD!! 

 

I hope this is what you were seeking. But either way, I'm right beside you girl!.. and I may have failed, but at least I TRIED!!  ;) 



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