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ambergbay
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Posted on Fri, May 31, 2013 22:30

The goal was written in dry erase in case it should be changing. I wondered about pain as I sat in my father's hospital room Wednesday, May 29th, 2013. The day of his bypass surgery, and my little brother's 34th birthday. I wondered about how much pain a person can endure before it kills them, feeling grateful that my own comes with frequent pause. I am more up than down. I remember my dad telling me once, "People like to get high Amber. All people. If they try to tell you different they are lying."

I can't even argue with him for the most part because almost everyone I know medicates in some fashion; booze, weed, killer pills (the kind doctor's give to relieve pain), and the ANTI, anti-depressant. I experimented with all of them before I realized that I would have to walk around with an I.V. drip of heroin to kill all the things I feel. These days I just run with it, as in I lace up my Nike's and run. You bet I get high, but pain. The pain is there.

The wound was green, leathered with tendons near bone. My father cringed and howled as the nurse pressed to clean the meat of it. "Breathe.." She urged gently. He howled to the bowels of torment until a second nurse popped in to ask, "Did you change your mind about the pain medicine? Are you ready for it now." The question was a dose of inevitable. He shook his answer like a fiend on the edge of losing himself, and he was, as the first nurse continued to tear into the gape of his "big" wound which was white and green like a maggot squished to guts. "Big breaths," she coaxed to cheer lead, "Big breaths... You can do this."

His hurt was proof that he could.



The Life You Live is a CHOICE- I choose HAPPY :)

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greeneyesss
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Posted on Fri, Jun 07, 2013 20:16

i truly feel for you.get the feeling you maybe encourageing elderly father tough it out.im here to say had a leg wound cleaned snd dead flesh scrubbed.please dont think feeling the agony helps it is the kind of pain i hope you never know.depression can be brought  on and hinder healing process.tell him you will be no less proud if he takes something the doctor orders



well im thinking dont worry jen you wont be alone for rest of life.everyone feeling discouraged today.the one for you.and the one for me is just yet to find we are there (+one)

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Posted on Mon, Jun 03, 2013 07:41

Thank you so much for your kind words and prayers. My dad is still in ICU... I tell him that the world is on his side :) 

Much Love and Many Blessings,

Amber Garibay



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Posted on Sun, Jun 02, 2013 18:00

Best of luck to your father--and many, many prayers for him.



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Posted on Sat, Jun 01, 2013 22:22

I might sound a bit belligerent as a newbie here but you cant control pain. Pain is our friend so we're gonna control it as much as we control other friends. Pain truly is weakness leaving your body. The more it hurts the stronger you get. Wondering about pain is like wondering about the weather. Doesnt make sense. Life cant give you anything close to the limit. You're stronger than ten lives filled with pain. Never forget that.

 

I've been through a civil war at the age of eleven. Discriminated against. A refugee my whole life, away from home. My country is under constant western-terrorist pressure and scrutiny. Broke my right arm at 12. Broke my right leg at work, almost getting killed at 24. I realize the system we live in is designed to keep us slaving. On all levels. Time spent at work. Rules at work etc. So....I know a little something about pain. Get stronger soon!



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Orlando__
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Posted on Sat, Jun 01, 2013 05:24

I said a prayer for your father.  It's not much but it's all I have to offer.  Stay strong. 



**My top strength is"learning." So, my blogs are learning-focused. ~Orlando

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