I know it has been eight years, a really long time since we last spoke. And somehow it does not feel awkward or odd to me one bit. I can feel that you feel that me and you are meant to be and that we belong together. It's just a natural feeling I get. I feel the same way about you, I feel we are meant to be together after so many obstacles that life has put in our path. Gosh, almost a decade! Who would of knew that after those eight years we have found each other again. And I for one and not going to be so naive to not believe in my feelings of wanting to be with you now. If we did not wind up being with each other when I was 18 when we met it is because of my adolescence nature. It is like no time has really passed between us, we picked up right where we left off back in September 2005. Do you remember when I laid my hand on yours? I am sailing a ship and it is night time, and you are like the light beacon that guides me to you. I am so glad and happy that we have found each other once again. And the famous quote goes: "Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you, was beyond my control" I feel as if though this is a part of God's elaborate design for us to cross paths once again. All I can see is your silhouette, physical frame, your shadow. I cannot see your face clearly, neither can my eyes comprehend your facial features. I am in love with your shadow, your spiritual being. Even though I cannot see you, but I know my feelings are very strong for you. It is something that I cannot see, but I know within my heart and soul that you are there. And you are there within me, inside of me, growing inside of me, like leaves attached to a vine growing upward surrounding my heart. My heart where life can be cut short if the leaves vessels are clogging my passage to deliver my love to you.
The man I met on that dating website, when we met it was in the dark, it was nighttime. When I had met him I was only 18 at that time. I was young, inexperienced, naive whatever you want to call it. But I knew that I wanted this type of relationship in my life, I had to obtain it. So, as I drove from Massachusetts to Warwick, Rhode Island, I started getting really nervous. I did not know what to expect from him or what he was going to expect from me. So I arrive at the location where we agreed. I got out of the car. I can only see a silhouette of what he looks like. I didn't ask if we could go somewhere else so we could sit and talk. We wounded up going our separate ways for the situation and reasons at the time being. Eight years later up until this very day, I can not even tell if I was even attracted to him or not. Because I could not see his face. Now were back in the present day 2013, right after I emailed him in January 29 2013, I thought this was crazy. How can I have all of these feelings for this person, when I didn't even see what they look like? It's like almost feeling like for example, falling in love with someone before you have even seen them in real life, and without seeing their photo? It is just such a mysterious feeling I get when I think about him. A feeling like it is meant to be with him. And all of the feelings I get when I think of the guy I met on millionaire match they just fade away.... I thought that no man could ever be in my heart again after Rohan planted his being in my eyes. To me it seems like the more strongly we hold on to our love for one man, it is due to the cause of our own apprehension for the outcome of that feeling towards that person your in love with. It is best that we just come to our plain senses with our feelings, but then again there would be no romance in our lives, and no love lessons to learn along the way while we are waiting for the right guy, the guy that we will spend the rest of our lives with, our soulmate.
About three years ago, as I was just starting to use this website again, I saw this guy. I will not use his real name for his privacy and discretion. I thought he was very beautiful. He lived very very far away from me. And so, meeting him in person was not going to happen. As days went on I felt a strange longing to want to be at his side, and live in his world. It was very obvious that he had the attention of many woman on this website, and in his daily life in general. I could clearly see that about him, as he seemed to be that type of guy exactly. I never understood why he stopped communicating with me. I always thought that he was cold and cruel to do this. Over the years this abrupt non contact from him has caused me to be sad. Sad because, I know that I will never be apart of his world. A world that only me and him belonged in. But then again recently my feelings have subsided. I really wish that I could feel for him for forever, and I thought that my love for him was really going to sustain itself. And then one day I woke up, and I felt my love for him fading away. Now, it doesn't mean that I have stopped loving him. It doesn't mean that not one bit, but I've learned now, the hard way that each and every man, and woman has to live their life according to their own transcript. I suffered intense longing to want to be at his side, even though he may never know who I am in real life. I've also learned that the more wealth a man has, the more will power it will require for that man to sustain and maintain that wealth. That wealth may for some time being bring great joy into his life, but after his life events are outlived by his previous predecessors, the wealth is nothing more than a mere handicapp in his life. This wealth has caused him such stress but also such high that he is willing to do anything such as sacrifice the woman he loves in order to maintain his wealth. I have got the first hand experience of this life lesson, and it is the most cruel lesson a man can inflict on the woman he loves dearly.
I've been on these dating website for quite awhile now, and then I just stopped and focused on my daily life for a few years. I all of a sudden feel a pull to want to try this wealthy dating scenario once again. I met a guy back in Rhode Island many many years ago, and he was the ohh so perfect man which was offering the ohh so perfect package to me. I can't forget him and even now I am still on the website where we first me and we have continue talking to each other again. I felt that I acted irrational and all of a sudden to not allow this relationship between me and him take place. But then again I was really young, and perhaps the second time is the better time around between me and him. It has been eight long years. Right after me and him finished emailing each other, I felt this strange feeling, that I must, and I have to get to know him again, we have to have another shot at being with each other again. I just know it, I can just feel it, it has to be, it has to happen. And it has to happen now.