"So ....the ability to love and be loved deeply"
That is what we all want I guess. Sounds simple enough but heres the problem........
To love deeply you have to trust , be vulnerable and put it all out there.......Anyone that has ever had their heart damaged at one point seems to have a hard time doing that.
For me only once, yet it was powerful enough to stifle my faith in loving someone with all you have and it not being enough........
Until that point I never questioned putting all my cards on the table with someone I fell in love with. Why play games, why hold back emotions? This isn't middle school right? Yet I do and ultimately a seemingly promising relationship fails to develop.
I wonder - Should I say to myself "it's a good thing I didn't let my guard down and really fall for that guy" or" was it my guarded emotions that sabotaged this promising relationship and caused it's ultimate demise in the first place"
So the age old question- Is it me or have I just not met the right guy?
I wonder how many of us think this way and continue to tip toe through our first dates and wait for that special someone to break this pattern.
Or is it just me?
You're probably thinking wow, this girls has some issues. Well, I guess I do. If you want to find someone that doesn't you'll have to spend your time with newborn babies that have yet to experience any emotional loss.
The truth of it is...Normally I'd
just wink back or respond with some meaningless small talk which may or may not lead to a meeting.
And hope this person can alter my mindset and sweep me off my feet. How insane is that?
This is the definition of insanity: Doing the same thing over and over and expecting A different result.
Today I felt like saying what was so..........Here I am... Issues and all ready to take the chance to find true love rather than live in mediocrity and play safe.
I compell you all to join me... GO BIG OR GO HOME I SAY!!!!!
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